For many years I've been seeking a way to explain ADD to strangers. It's something I've had all my life, both my children have it, and I'm quite certain my father had it too.
So here goes.
It's like having Robin Williams in your head.
Robin Williams has been very public about his own ADD. His creative comic explosions are a great way to visualize what it's like. But not all his thoughts are funny.
Some people with Robin Williams in their head will sit back and enjoy the show. My daughter does that. She laughs a lot.
But the Robin Williams in your head can be a trickster. He can play games with you you're not aware of, reversing letters on a page, turning bed to deb, or dog to god. He may reverse the orders of words. It's fun for the Robin Williams in your head. But the rest of the world calls this dyslexia. Many people with passive ADD have dyslexia or dysplaxia, a similar problem with math.
Other people try to face down the Robin Williams in their heads. They argue with him. They try to become like him. Their heads become very busy places, and they may not have much time for what's outside them. If you're a boy and you have Robin Williams in your head, you will likely be diagnosed as having ADHD. You don't know there's anything wrong. You see the whole world from the inside out. You may have great trouble interacting with other people, or suffering other, slower people, like teachers.
I have this type of ADD. I was diagnosed, I later learned, in 1965. I wasn't told this at the time, and I wasn't medicated. To survive I developed a split personality, as my father had. Over time this let me "grow out" of ADHD, as they say, but I was always a house divided against myself until middle age, when an understanding psychiatrist helped me understand what was wrong, that it wasn't wrong, and helped give me ways to integrate myself again.
Not everyone with Robin Williams in their head is a compulsive comic. Some are compulsive inventors, or compulsive artists, or compulsive scientists. Me. I'm a compulsive writer. I can no longer stop writing than I can turn off the Robin Williams in my head.











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